Everything in life is only for NOW.

There's a reason why I like musicals. They're openings are usually pretty awesome, others amazing. But the end? Leaves me feeling better everyday. They put positive spins in everything. Take Avenue Q, where I got the title for this blog from, for example. The closing song "For Now" is witty and has a great message to it. I especially like this line: "Don't sweat, relax. Let life roll off your backs. Except for debt and paying taxes, everything in life is only for now."

For now, I don't know what to do about every question, every event, every problem and other things that come my way. I don't know how to deal with boys and their complicated-ness. [Though a good friend tells me it all is rather simple. I may be over-analyzing things, but I can't help it!] I don't know why I keep getting these insecure thoughts and how the hell I'm going to stop them. I don't know why I keep second-guessing myself. [Okay, maybe I kinda do. Sorta?] I don't know why it's kinda hard for me to open up to people. [I kinda got a hang of it a few months back but I think I'm back to my old habits. I kinda don't tell anyone my problems because I feel like I'm gonna put more burden in them more if I do] Okay I think I answered my own question in that last one. Anyway. I'm kinda going off-topic now. For now, I don't know a lot of things. But one day, I will. I'll know what to do in those situations that scare me so. I'll know what to say, sort of. You can't really be expected to know what to say if someone surprises you. But that's all NOW. I will get better, I will get out of this funk I've been in, I will. :)

Is this what growing up feels like? cause I really don't understand anything anymore =))

I gotta get back to CRUNCH time. I hate cramming, but it's like an art form I've come to perfect. Hay.

I leave you with this quote from the Avenue Q song "For Now" yet again.

"Life may be scary, but it's only temporary."

I bid you adieu. *bow*

xoxo,

NC

PS btw! here's the link to the song on youtube. :D FOR NOW--AVENUE Q

just a thought before i go to bed

First time blogging using my iTouch. Hahaha. Kinda hard, will keep this short.
A thought popped in my head during this "antagal dumating ng sleep" night. I haven't cried at all this term. Oh except for teary-eyed moments. (i.e. Toy Story 3) but the full on bawling? Not once this term. There are times when I really really wanted to (i.e. thesis, stress on acads and family and other stuff) because it was either frustrating or sad or both or more than. Opportunity never came though. Or if it did, I stopped myself from crying because it wouldn't help the situation. I needed a good cry weeks ago, when everything felt too much. I still need it now. And yet, the tears won't come.

I leave you with thus tidbit: if the tears come from the right eye, they're happy tears. Otherwise, sad tears.

Good night & God bless.

You Know you love me :p xoxo
N.C.

Thoughts.

random thoughts that need to get out of my head.

Walang Friday this term na di ako pumasok. Or if meron naman, yun lang. :))

Minsan, I get bitchy. I'm sorry. :( It's the stress talking.

Or I'm really just being moody.

I'm not home much. Bummer.

There are days when I just want to lie in bed and watch tv shows :P

I feel like nawawalan ako ng time sa office. :( Must fix schedule. hindi ko na mabigay ung parang dati :( :|

Nawawalan din ako ng time for friends :( I miss a lot of people na :( Huhu.

I plan my time well, I just don't execute my plans that well. :P

Antagal ko nang di nanuod ng movie. Antagal ko nang di pumunta ng mall just for the sake of going to the mall.

you confuse me so much. I don't know what you want, what I want, what's happening.

I hope you get better. I really really really hope you do Tita :(

I wanna go back to Trumpets =)) I miss musical theater

I need to get my laptop fixed.

I need to start working NOW. :P